Now a days there's a lot of pressure to fit in; and I'm not talking about your classic kids in school situation. You can be pressured to fit in sexually, mentally, skillfully, athletically, and whole bunch of ways but what I'm talking about is a lot different. Currently, I'm feeling the pressure to fit in with my family. I'm trying to act, speak, and think the way they would like me to, but the only problem is I don't agree with a lot of it. According to my parents standards I must act accordingly in front of people and be respectful (which is understandable), however I cannot speak my mind or discuss anything that maybe offensive or a "questionable" topic. I must speak politely and eloquently and mustn't use foul language. And lastly, I must think Christian-ly and ponder about things that will someday change the world. . . Well FUCK THAT!
Fuck all of it. I'd rather be happy and live a decent life than follow all of the rules. Sometimes I wanna act like a complete fool cause that relieves stress, or curse because every other word doesn't capture my exact thoughts of feelings, and maybe I just wanna think crazy thoughts because that's the only way to be sane in this fucked up world.
I am fucking tired of acting/being something I'm not and trying to fit in with a bunch of people who aren't trying hard enough to understand me. I love them and I know they love me, but I'm tired of playing the game by their rules. Plus, there are tons of other games to play out there! One's that are definitely more fun, too. I just don't think that it's ever occurred to them that no matter how hard anyone tries, they will never fit in because there's fun in being just like everyone else.
Don't be basic 'cause you'll never make it.
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